I had a meltdown last night, triggered by a t.v show.  I identified so heavily with the pain and emotions the main character showed.  I realize today that I have blamed myself for your death for far too long and it's time to put it to rest.  I hate that you made that stop that night.  I hate that you were snatched away.  I'm grateful for the family and friends you left behind to look after me.  Thank you Tutu for loving me.  Rest on love, I'll see you on the other side💞💞😘😘😘