It's hard for me but I moved (against my wishes) from our old apartment. It's hard because that's where people knew to find you and I'm still having to tell people that you're gone, because they're still just finding out. I have to relive that night and then try to console them as they console me. I'm coming to your gravesite (I know you're not there, just your body),it's something that I feel strongly about. I'm having a real hard time with the firsts. Every month it's something new and this month has been really difficult! I had to make it through the 4th, now our birthday's are coming up and I still hurt just like it happened today. I wrote a letter to your father and I hope to hear back from him soon. You've brought many people into my life and they're continuing to hold onto me until we meet again. I love you and miss you! I think of you all the time. I can smile when I talk to others about my life with you and then I begin to cry because as the song said "we haven't finished yet". There were so many things we wanted to do and places we wanted to go, you're always in my heart and I know you're looking out for me, tell my daddy "hi" for me and that I still love and miss him too!